Practically Clueless

This is a story of how I got close to getting to a person that I wanted,

And how I threw it all away…

Somehow it felt so bittersweet rather than dismay,

She was somehow a motivation,

Something that I look up to almost like devotion,

The day I met her was my darkest days,

I had no faith in myself or anything else,

You are a flower amongst the rubbles,

You kept yourself intact no matter how much the world changes,

You did what I never did,

You analyse and adapt and bring it in your own colour,

Showing that you can be who you are; a universal truth that speaks for the speechless,

It’s funny how I try to always catch up to you,

It’s like grasping the stars in the heavens,

So close yet so far…

It seems that Faith has kept our strands intertwined for some time,

You seemed to not realised that I have grown fond of you all those time,

They say when you love someone you let it go,

Give them a chance to grow,

It is really hard to let you go,

Since all we had to talk was always business and assignments that are on the go,

I realised it when we went our separate ways and my head was in a mush,

I guess that’s why they call it a crush…

One day I reflect upon my feelings,

Should I tell you how I feel, is it right?

A small voice laughs when this question arises,

You know what is wrong and what is right,

Do what is best,

I nodded solemnly without contest

 I wish you all the best in your future endeavours,

I’ll swallow my ego and accept Life as it is if there’s no such thing as us,

No matter what happens next I still wish you the best,

As I begin to see that the world is no jest,

I’m burying my crushed heart with full hearted laughs and smiles,

But at night I sleep by talking to the Moon,

Hoping to ease my way to deep slumber,

No matter what happens now,

I’ll live my life and pave my way to my final Destination.

You are and always are my Godsend inspiration…